decidere

literally, "to cut off."

therein lies the most difficult part of making a decision.

i don't want to give up any of my options.

i swim in a multiplicity of choices.

there are always so many things i could be doing right now.

have i goals in mind? certainly.  but, it's not always so simple to meet them.

it's not entirely about a lack of willpower.

it's not necessarily laziness.

it's about identifying the dispensable things

and sending them to the guillotine

and being okay with that.

old as the fall

the bite into the fruit, not the current season.

"I want to be your favorite person in the world.  Why?  Sin."
-Pastor Josh Hedger







squirm



me, too

"We are not truly teachable unless our desire to learn more of the Bible is motivated by a sincere desire to grow in Christlikeness, not by a satisfaction that we know so much of Bible facts and doctrine.  We can easily fool ourselves with our intellectual knowledge (our ginosko) while failing to enter into a genuine experience and application of that knowledge (epiginosko)."

-Jerry Bridges, The Transforming Power of the Gospel

too little time, too many metaphors

you make a voyage

to the land that has been your center of gravity

for years now.

you expect refreshment, pleasantries, and the like,

but you find yourself dog-piled by ten times this

and more.

your axons and dendrites cannot handle

what they experienced.

sensorimotor overload.

every moment there, no matter how mundane,

seemed to sink into a deep-seated substrate

like tiles in a game of tetris,

each coming at the right time to the right place,

even the straight, long pieces that you seem to need so often.

never have you felt so acutely your creator's sovereign hand,

even in the ugliest, messiest, most convoluted of latitudes.

it will take days for levity to return,

but, for the fathomless joy you experienced,

you bid levity take its time.

good grief

"For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death."

-2 Corinthians 7:10

"The people recognise themselves in their commodities; they find their soul in their automobile, hi-fi set, split-level home, kitchen equipment. The very mechanism which ties the individual to his society has changed, and social control is anchored in the new needs which it has produced."

-Herbert Marcuse, One-Dimensional Man, 1964

It's true, Marcuse.  It's true of you and me and him and her and he and she.

But, there's a better place to recognise yourself

than capitalism, 

socialism, 

or a mirror.
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John 1:12